A L O N E

why do i felt this way?
how can i heal my broken heart?
why nobody wants to love me?
why is everybody going out of my way?

what should i do?
i feel so alone
i am so afraid to face the fact
that your already gone
but why do you have to force me
like this?

how can i forget you?
how can i get you out of my damn life?
how can i get you out of my heart?
how can i?

can you please help me?
how can i forget the time we
spent together?
where we shared laughters
and downfalls ..

i can't help it anymore
i want to fix this unfortunate life
but why do i need to suffer
this much?
just because you are on
her arms tonight

This heartache..

it leads me to my deepest
weakness..
i don't wanna be alone
i want to build my world around you
but what I've done?

i made you cry and worst
i made you suffer having me
and now..
i know your happy enough
enough for me to face
the reality that your truly gone

while i am here ..
here in a cold dark place..
where i sat under our promise tree
and thinking..
" can someone saves me? "

Hatred of the Past

once. . there was a girl
she is very popular because she is
hated by everyone..

since she was a kid..
she was hated and fake by everyone in her class.
she's not smart, just an average..

she's sweet
she's friendly
she's very joyful
but her classmates misinterpret her always.

she have been bullied many times.
she have suffer so much just to get the love she desire..
a Friend.
a friend who will never lie to her.
a friend who will help her.
a friend who will guide her..
and since she was hated at the first place...
no one seems to care..


she became independent
she cried every night after a long day
she blame herself that helps lower her self esteem
and provoked her to commit suicide.

she is thirst of love
she is thirst of joy
she is thirst of having a friend.

then.

One day comes..
she stand all by herself.
she learn how to fight for her rights
she learn how to be strong
she do everything she knew to make her happy..
but everyone seems to be annoyed seeing her happy
so they planned to let her feel down.

and they succeed.

they saw the girl cried.
she shout out loud and expressed her inner thoughts to everyone..
but it is still the same..

NO ONE LOVES HER.
NO ONE CARES.
NOBODY~